We’ve heard it all before, being kind and soft-hearted is both a blessing and a curse. It’s a gift that not many people have but it’s a burden to live with.
Being soft-hearted puts you in the position of so much hurt and pain but you endure and live with it as much as you can because most of the time, other people’s happiness is more important than your own. Other people’s happiness is your own happiness.
You always give people so many chances they don’t even deserve in the first place. You let them trample upon you because you are the one who understands more. You’re willing to be torn apart because other people may not be able to carry it out well had they been the one torn apart. You cry in silence with no one to console you but you make your best efforts to be there for other people even if they weren’t there to comfort you in your time of need.
You love other people so much but you end up being hurt by them. They cause you pain yet you allow them inside your heart over and over again. You try your best to be the best for others, the one they need but who else is there for you after it?
There were times when you just get really irritated and annoyed because someone is being “annoying” or “irritating”. Like their presence annoy the shit out of you, everything they say and do could be really irritating and you ignore them and treat them like shit. Even if the person lives freely and doesn’t do anything to hurt you, you still look at them and roll your eyes toward them because… because… because they’re simply being themselves. Period. See? They’re just being themselves but what do you do? You take it against them. Imagine if you are treated the way you treat other people? It sucks right? So just let go of being mean now.
How to do that? It’s simple! Appreciate yourself more. Understand that if you can’t be someone, you’re probably best to be yourself and focus on your own strengths instead of your weakness. From there, you will learn that your weaknesses help you become a better person. So instead of hating other people, being annoyed or irritated, appreciate them and their efforts toward a nicer life.
Being mean to someone doesn’t make you any happier. Instead, it makes you a lot more burdened and stressed out ad that’s sad right? Stressing yourself for no apparent reason is rather a telling tale of how awful your attitude towards life. So no, start liking yourself more so that you like other people more!
If you begin to like and appreciate yourself and what you can do, you’ll definitely like and appreciate what others can do and who they are.
If you seem to dislike a lot of other people, then maybe you don’t like yourself very much right? And that’s just lonely.
So the secret to being happy and likeable and okay is to start within you then the rest follows.
As I have written on my previous post, I have realizations wherein I continue to catch myself being different and far more better (most of the time) than the previous version of myself. I figured it’s probably because maybe, everyone of us have a lot of souls inside us. I mean we have a core soul but we have tremendous fiber of other layers hovering and just waiting to emerged to the surface when the time calls for it. (disclaimer: this is a plain birth of my mind and I am not crazy. I also do not have scientific and even metaphoric basis on my ideas so… HAHAHA)
In a much more sensible phrase, no matter what the emotions and actions we have, we will always always unleash a different version of ourselves.
We would always be stronger, kinder softer, more loving, more understanding. Even MORE or LESS of everything, whichever way it goes, we are always different from who we were days, weeks, months, years ago. We have changed and most of the time, we don’t even notice it!
Even for a fact that I have an idea that somehow, I have changed for the better, I still get quite shocked whenever I feel like a better person. (this bit makes me laugh out loud to myself like really? I am a better person? LMAO) but seriously. Like for instance, when someone gives you shit, instead of bringing a bigger shit than you got, you become the bigger/better person and get rid of this shit instead of making a huge fuss out of it than you would usually do. Right? Like you get to be the better person and you get a little surprised when this sort of things happen but then you get used to being a better person so you go on with it day by day and end up being far far far more, way way way wayyyyy better than you already are and you get surprised again and the cycle goes on. So maybe, we just really unleash our beautiful souls when the time comes and isn’t that nice to know?
I was meaning for this entry to be more meaty and sensible but again, I failed because of the many babbling I do and keep distracting myself from things. Eeeep!
You’ll always have your faith in humanity restored one way or another.
Kyx came to fetch me at work yesterday (Saturday) around past 12 in the afternoon. I was about to get off of work when my boss told me that he needs to talk to me. It’s about my regularization and whatnot (It’s all good news but I don’t want to dwell on it at the moment) while Kyx was waiting, he turned the car engine off and when I came down, I opened the car and he was looking so frustrated and I was wondering why? He usually would wait for me even longer without getting mad, so when I got inside the car he told me to get out because the car engine wouldn’t start. I WAS LIKE OHHH MY GOD WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED? So it was all of Azul’s (Azul is the name of our car) antics and he just didn’t want to be a car at that moment so Kyx was getting all worked up because he said he tried it several times but it still wouldn’t start! A lot of things were running inside my head, I didn’t want Azul to not work because I love him so much and oh God I didn’t want for us to pay for the towing company if ever Azul wouldn’t really let up! So after what I felt like forever in 5 minutes, a Marshall was now walking towards us (a BGC Marshall is a traffic enforcer in Bonifacio Global City, the place where my office is at) so he talked to Kyx and he even pushed the car. It still didn’t start, then he asked if we want to call for a repair guy or something. So he used his radio (like the walkie talkie kind) and after 2 miniutes, a vehicle that reads “security” came and 2 other Security people went out of the car and asked Kyx what was going on. They were apparently security people but they are knowledgeable enough to help us with Azul. They instructed Kyx to do something and then they pushed the car and then the engine fired! OH GRACIOUS LAWD I was so happy! I wanted to cry and hug the 3 men who helped us. There isn’t much I can do so I videotaped them and ask them their names. They were so helpful and genuine. It wasn’t even part of their job to do that (or was it part of their job? But whatever) They were so kind to us and I am glad that these kind of people still exist! There were a lot of people passing by and looking at us even before the marshall approached us and not of them seemed to care. I guess they thought we can handle it or anything but I am glad some people offered help without even asking anything in return. God bless and good karma to these people. If you have encountered someone having trouble with whatever, it wouldn’t hurt to ask if they need anything, or if you can do something for them. In this world filled with cruelty, it is such a big deal when people are genuinely good to other people, to strangers. It pays to be kind, ya know 😉