Drinking Problems

I didn’t even know that it was already a drinking problem of some sort until people started telling me that I looked dry, drunk and alcoholic. I can’t say I’m alcoholic *siguro patawid palang but fortunately, hindi naman* and thinking about it, I figured maybe I was just an extremely heavy drinker cause I grew up with 3 brothers who are really heavy drinkers (not in a bad way hehehe I’m trying to justify pa lol) but you see, we’re not alcoholics. We just love our booze.

Alcoholism is not to be taken lightly. It’s a serious substance abuse that could lead to health problems and I’m fully aware of that. I’m not downplaying or portraying anything that I am not.

So back in the day, during my college years, my glorious years, I drank so much. I don’t do it on a daily basis at first and of course, I’m not one to drink around groups. I love drinking with just my friends. College stuff, workload and a lot of other requirements led me to feel so stressed out and I resorted to drinking every weekend. It has been a weekend hobby for me. I’d invite friends over my house and we’d drink at our garage. Chill drink lang, walang walwalan. But if my friends are not available, I’d just drink by myself. Ganong levels. I didn’t see anything wrong with what I was doing though.

I was still responsible. I study, I am good in class, I’m an okay person in general. But I drink weekly.

Until such time that I really feel like I needed to drink, any time of day. It’s as if I was always looking for an excuse to drink. It was as if my body is looking for alcohol and I needed to give in to it because if not, I won’t be able to sleep well.

I have my flask with me—EVERYWHERE I GO. With a small amount of booze, I’m at peace that I could carry on with the day and get by.

I am not a party girl but I look up booze mixes on pinterest just for the heck of it. I loved every mix I ever did with jell-o and gummie bears. I was crazy.

But one fine day, I just stopped altogether. I didn’t want booze, I didn’t crave for it the way I used to. I just didn’t feel like drinking that much anymore.

Now, I still drink (not as much) and I still have my flask 🙂

So I think that this isn’t alcoholism. It was just a phase I guess?

Did you have a phase like this?

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If you have drinking problems, if you feel like you’re getting addicted to it, maybe it’s time to consult a doctor or a therapist. Especially if it is a result of a problem, depression or if it has anything to do with your emotional and mental health.

My problem was that it was purely out of sheer joy but it was not because I was depressed or what (I have depression but I didn’t drink because of it)

Glitch Glitch: Immortal Days

I wanted to show you all art pieces from Glitch Glitch: Immortal Days 2 man show by Angge and Crist but I have to tell you that I am such a failure when it comes to blogging. I should have gotten the names of each art piece but whatever. I’ll do better next time I swear.

Glitch Glitch: Immortal Days by Angge Lorente and Crist Espiritu

Glitch Glitch, the collective name of visual artists Crist Espiritu and Angge Lorente, unveils their latest artworks in a two-man exhibition titled “Immortal Days”. The show features a collection of artworks that urges one to go back to those years of juvenile exploits. Yesterdays of endless endorphin rush brought about by transient fancies, bad decisions and substance experimentation. Days when one surrendered to hazy nights of seemingly endless euphoria. Glory days that went on forever. These were the years that birthed your happy place. These were the days when you were immortal.

Angge Lorente explores/ exploits the human anatomy in its most primal; stripped of all mundane labels like gender, age or job descriptions. In her paintings the subjects are exquisite mishmash of flesh chucked onto the canvas with geometric figures, organic patterns, and textures creating engaging compositions. These process results dimming the inherent vulnerabilities of the subjects. By stripping away all the unnecessary, what remains are creatures of pure beauty driven by wanton desires and intractable emotions. Lorente’s art is a mirror that reflects our idealized selves… perpetually young and electric.

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For Immortal Days, Crist Espiritu went on a relatively experimental path and presents his latest series called “Repurposing Memories”; a series of found objects, videos and mixed media assemblage. The artist states that “…the best days are those one could barely remember. Days wrapped in dopamine haze wherein the truth is blurred out thereby converting the experience into raw emotions unbound by logic’s boring gravitational pull.”
With this in mind, Espiritu reclaimed objects with inseverable links to his personal past and exorcised the intrinsic stories within each of them. Beaten up skateboards, wornout sneakers and other items all became raw materials for the process. Through creative alterations the objects are given new functions and are transformed into artworks that looks to the future instead of staying mere relics of years long gone. With this approach both the process and the final artworks inevitably become allegories for the coming of age.

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Glitch Glitch believes that in today’s robotically fast-paced world, art serves as a break from all of life’s monotonously bland programming. With this show, Glitch Glitch shoves into focus the quickly depleting health bar you are given to navigate this rigged game that is your existence. No sense in setting your gears to a slow crawl towards the end. Go out and live your immortal days.

(Glitch Glitch: Immortal Days write up (I didn’t write this)

 

They both very much differ in style and execution but both outputs were lovely! I love Angge’s realism and the play she did with black and white and grey while popping some gold and red. I bet it has so much more than what I can understand and I regret not asking Angge these things but she was actually really busy entertaining a ton of guest! *Congratulations Angge!*

I also love how Crist played with mixed media. There’s so much details in his works and it screams passion in all the pieces. It’s on the funky and bright colored paints but you can tell there’s something deeper than just vibrant images and colors.

Here are the photos that Kyx and I managed to capture. You must remember that Kyx is very uncomfortable with taking photos in public, He is so awkward and shy but whatever, I however got him to take my pictures and I can tell he’s cringing but didn’t want to disappoint me lol.

*I didn’t edit the photos I took of Angge and Crist’s art pieces so you can see it raw.