I haven’t been writing not because it feels like a chore but I have a lot of things going on in my life that I just do not have enough time to write anymore. Sobrang lala haha.
Anyway, let me start this post by telling you that FINALLY (as in oh my god talaga), Finally I am forgiving people that caused me pain and that I understood everything now. So I guess, I just freed myself from the burden of thinking too much, not letting go, not letting God do his thing etc etc. and I am happy huhuhu after trying so hard faking it, after going through the loop of being happy and sad and happy again and then sad again, I’m back to normal!
- I was going to write about this but I was not sure if she wanted to be exposed like this pero, I’m writing it now anyway haha à I met up with Kat last week and had lunch at Mary Grace. SHE WAS SUPER FUN TO BE WITH or talagang nag-click lang kami agad? I am myself when I am with her and I didn’t have to try hard. Lamo yun? Yung I wasn’t trying to be extra nice, I wasn’t worried that I might say the wrong things basta it was just amazing huhuhu. I feel like we’re meant to be friends hahaah feeler hahah but whatever. Ang saya ko. Though I think Mary Grace is pricy than other restaurants, ang sarap kasi kaya niyaya ko si Kat doon hahahah next time baka magmicrowave nalang kami ng baon na food. HAHA. Wait. Anyway, I feel like Kat is my legit friend talaga. Another thing pala about Kat, she is super pretty! Walang pores levels. Simple but very beautiful. As in muka akong ewan kapag katabi ko siya pero wapakels ako hahaha. ANG GANDA NI KAT. ❤
- Days after (yata or a day after. Di ko na sure) I decided that I’m letting go and I’ll be forgiving people despite the fact that they did not apologize to me whatsoever, I talked to Space about it until she told me that maybe, I can try to reach out again just for closure. I prayed for it and wrote a letter haha. I was going to send it via snail mail but I was thinking it would take longer and my goal was to close that chapter of my life before I turn a year older again so I called one person. The one who started it all. I was so nervous. The last time we spoke she was telling me that I should have been killed in an earthquake so I didn’t know what to expect. But you know what? I told her I was sorry and she told me she IS SORRY TOO! I could not believe what I was hearing. It was a 20minute phone call and we talked more via chat and ya know, we’re not friends again but at least we forgave each other after everything. And for me, that chapter was closed already. It was behind us and if ever God’s plan is to pave a new chapter for friendship then who am I to say now (although my mom do not believe the “let’s be friends again” thing but just saying diba. Who knows. I am not closing my doors haha joke. Showbiz lang)
- Last Thursday, I went out with my cousins and had dinner with them. Ang refreshing lang ng ganap and nothing has changed, ganoon pa rin kami. They were my first best friends and I am glad I still have them ❤
Hayyyy a breath of fresh air! Ang saya. Parang ang daming tinik yung nabunot sa dibdib ko.