Bakit ako napadpad don?

Nabasa ko yung tweet niya. Kinoquote pa yung blog ko tapos ang daming sinasabi.

Bakit kung ayaw mo sakin di mo nalang ako kalimutan? Ang sakit ng mga sinasabi mo na parang galit na galit ka ANG TAGAL TAGAL NA HAHA nakamove on na lahat bat ganon ??????????

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Kamusta?

You know what, I have been typing for about an hour already but I can’t seem to say the right words. I just badly want to be able to write again and share my thoughts but it’s so frustrating when I can’t do it the way I used to before.

I want to tell you all my hanash about work, the career path I am in right now, the support I have been getting from my managers and bosses, my friends, family not to mention the tools, meetings nd trainings the company is giving us to make us better business leaders PERO PUCHA ANG HIRAP TALAGA. Hahahaha.

As of writing this, I feel like I am in a good place right now. So far I am okay with all the changes I havebeen dealing with. Sana lang magtuloy tuloy ito.

Ano bang pwede kong maishare sainyo? While iniisip ko, isheshare ko nalang yung nangyari sa araw ko.

Today may meeting with my area and kahit antok na antok ako from closing shift, I managed to survive! Hindi naman kasi heavy ang info kanina, it’s more on shifting your mindset. Minsan iniisip ko pangbebrainwash talaga yung mga ganitong ganap pero in fairness, effective. Sa line of work ko siguro hindi mawawala yung ffeeling na madedemotivate ka pero laging nababawi. Siguro dahil sa support system nga na mismong yung kumpanya yung nagbibigay. Marami din kaming tools and trainings kaya kaag demotivated ka na, magiging okay ka ulit kasi mababago nanaman. Yung mindset mo until further notice.

Mahirap sobra sa retail. Sobrang thorough ang cleaning na ginagawa namin tapos for efficiency, bawal kaming umupo while doing tasks. Nasanay na nga ako kaso wala nang pakiramdam literal yung dalawang sakong ko. Ipapacheck up ko nga kasi manhid talaga sila forever dibaa ayareeee aahahaha. Everyday, paguran talaga as in labanan araw araw ng physical, mental and emotional aspects ng pagkatao mo. Ang daming bastos na tao. May mga magbabayad lang kailangan pang ibato sa counter yung bayad nila na parangg pa-cool na ewan. Minsan naiinis din ako kapag tinatawag kaming “beh, teh, ate, koya” kasi parang walang proper na pag-address pero baka sensitive lang ako? Ang dami din rude talaga. May mga 3 to 5 minutes palang na naghihintay eh nagagalit at nagrereklamo na. We are trained to move fast pero kapag worth 20k yung items ng binili ng nauna sayo ieexpect mo ba na matatapos ko yun in 2 minutes? Hindi ko alam kung sobrang entitlement ba yon or demanding lang talaga ang ibang tao pero I just want to say na bottomline ng lahat ng iyan eh you always have to treat people with kindness and sana hindi porket bibili tayo o gagastos tayo sa isang bagay eh pwede na tayo mag mala-Veruca Salt spoiled brat levels. Ibang usapan talaga yung kabaastusan ng ibang tao, out of this world ang pagka-rude! Pero maliit na bagay lang yan kasi ibag klase pa yung hirap na ginagawa namin before opeing and after closing the store. Kaya minsan ayoko na talaga kasi hindi siya okay sa mental health ko HAHAHA pero wala, kaailangan keri ko.

Kamusta kayo sa trabaho?

Life Update!

I owe this blog an update of what has been going on in my life lately.

In February, I started a manager in training position at a retail company, met a lot of wonderful people at work, learned so much, endured so much already in the past days and fought with myself whether I really wanted this or not.

In March, I went to Tokyo, Japan with Kyx and our friends. It was one of the most wonderful trips I have ever experienced and I don’t think I will ever forget how it made me feel.

In April, I turned another year older. Wee! I am 28 already and I am still as confused as I was back when I was 23. Hayayaya what do I really want to do with my life? I secretly just want to stay at home and do whatever the hell I like with an apartment business on the side. Hayayayayay.

Now, I am writing this so that you guys know that I am still alive, confused and need help mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Hahahaha!

Hello Hello Powz!

Hello! First of all, I am writing this blog entry with my new keyboard from Miniso!!!! I think it’s just 700 pesos and why is this keyboard relevant anyway? Well, after leaving my copywriting job, I didn’t have time to get my good old netbook fixed and so I had to resort to using my ipad for blogging. However, it is very exhausting to type using my ipad without a proper keyboard so ya get what I mean?

Anyway, I am excited to share with you my detailed experiences for the past 2 and a half months in my new job.

It’s funny how I can’t think about good things to say because as of right now, all I can think about are the horrific stuff I have dealt with such as people being so balahura at the fitting room, tapos yung mga nanggugulo ng mga super magagandang folded items. I don’t want to sound like I’m complaining (but I really am)

In short, nakakaloka talaga. Everyday, I think about how I have come up with this decision to choose this career path, everyday I struggle with the same thoughts. I question myself and think that maybe I have very poor decision making skills at the age of 28. (OH MY GOD YOU GUYS, I just turned 28 about 2 weeks ago!!!) There were times that I would cry myself to sleep because I don’t understand myself anymore.

Pero bago nga yung detailed chikabels ko, matutulog muna ako because I have worked a full 12 hours shift with only an hour-long break!!!! NAKAKALOKA.

So ayan, sorry kung nabitin yung chika ko. Basta pramis, bukas chichika talaga ako. Sana basahin niyo! Hahahahahhahahahahahha

P.S. Wag po tayong baboy sa fitting room guys, ang daming nagkakalat sobra. Minsan sisinga sa tissue tapos iiwan yung tissue doon. Guys sino bang dadampto non diba? I mean yung mga siimplengg ganyang bagay wag na gawin. Kasama sa work namin maglinis and all pero hindi kasama yung ganongg klaseng kababuyan levels. And to top it off, may mga mangungulangot tapos ipupunas sa pader ng FR. wag po ganon. Kami yung magkikiskis nung kulangot ano ba yun diba ahahahha ang daming binibili, may pera magshopping pero yung kulangot ganon ganon nalang ipapahid sa pader diba? I kenat powz hahahah. Ayun lang.

Lalagyan ko nalang ng password to next time kasi baka maligwak pa ako sa werk kapaag may nakakita muhahaha pero next time na.

See ya! Until next chika!!

I Want To Give Up

Ayan. Ganyan ang drama everyday.

But then, I realized na tuwing nagigising ako kinabukasan I am given another chance yet again to make the most out of my blessings. To keep going.

So bakit ako mag gigive up diba?

Next time na yung buong chika. May pasok pa ako bukas hassle hahaha

Life Update!

While waiting for my shift to start, I thought I’ll update you guys haha. Ever since I started my new job, I didn’t have enough time for things I like to do–blogging included. Work is so demanding, my time is not enough for a lot of things but I am really enjoying life right now. Everything aren’t always sparkles and rainbows but so far, it’s been good.

New Work – AMAZING! I’ve been learning a lot of things. The training is super hard and thorough but it’s going to be helpful in the long run.

Family – Happy as can be!!

Friends – I could not ask for more.

Maybe I’ll write a longer post later tonight. I miss you all!!! I miss writing. I miss everything. ❤️

The Art of Deadma: Boss Edition

I can’t believe I’m talking about this because I am the last person I can think of that would “deadma” something especially if it would trigger so many feelings.

With everything that happened to me, I have learned how to control my emotions, to choose my battles, to know how I should react especially in stressful scenarios. It wasn’t easy but the moment I was able to get the hang of it, then all is well. Hence I have learned the art of deadma.

After the holidays, my boss gave everyone in our team his Christmas gift. Everyone had their gifts on top of their tables except me. Yup! You got that right, he didn’t bother giving me a gift. He left me out.

Had it happened a year ago, I would’ve bawled my eyes out. It would have hurt me so bad that I would overthink every single detail. I would make assumptions as to why he would have left me out! But now, I don’t care as much as I always did.

Whether his intentions would be to hurt me, to make me feel bothered or not, I don’t care. I wouldn’t give him the slightest satisfaction of seeing me hurt or affected and the good part is I am not even pretending to be unaffected!

Because last night, I was just thanking God for all the blessings he gave me. He answered my prayers especially when I asked him to grant me healing. I feel so blessed just by thinking about my family, friends and loved ones and that is enough to make me feel happy. I don’t need  gifts in fancy wrapping papers, I don’t need fake love. I got what I need and that’s enough.

So the art of deadma works well especially when you feel satisfied, happy and blessed beyond belief. Whoo!