Be in control. Think before you act.

Before deciding on doing something, we have to think about it first. The situation, the people, will it hurt them, will it improve them, what good does it do to you and other people, do you have the best interest. These are some of the many things we have to consider before planning on doing something. Let’s not go very far, looking back, let’s see what happened.

  1. Ranting about other people – when you rant about other people you sometimes don’t know if you’re doing it all the time because if you do—then you’re becoming toxic. The thing you can do here is to see other people in a different light before letting your emotions take over you. When you try to understand people, you become more patient. When you are patient, you don’t tend to rant about other people’s actions anymore because you are more understanding of their situation and what is going on.
  2. Shaming others and turning others against an individual – first off, this is basically wrong in so many levels. So you shouldn’t actually do that if you are a rational human being to begin with. But if you are on the verge of doing so and you are about to blow, try putting yourself in the shoes of the individual you’re about to destroy. If it will hurt you, others may be hurt too right? Aside from that, what will you achieve if you did that? Oh right, a special place in hell. So if you don’t want that special place near Satan, you have to re-evaluate your thoughts and actions.
  3. Getting angry with people – emotions are always valid, nobody can tell you that you have no right to be angry however, harbouring anger only burdens YOU more than it will burden other people. If you feel angry, think if you also did something that made other people angry. If so, what were their reaction, what actions did they take? Did they have a go with you? There’s no telling how people handle anger, but there’s always self-control. Instead of being angry, try a different method to cope with the situation or the person that makes you feel the way you feel.

Starting to live a more peaceful and stressful life is a struggle. It’s never going to be easy because we’re only human and sometimes, we can’t think rationally when our emotions take over our body. However, we have a choice. It’s either you let your feelings take over (which we all know don’t really help in the long run) or use your mind and think about everything first.

Be in control. Think before you act.

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Love Like Jesus Daw

Putting “love like Jesus” to practice is hard but fulfilling, refreshing even if I am being completely honest.

Sunday, May 27, 2018 at church, we were told about Love being the fruit of the Holy Spirit. That even if we are given the gifts of the Holy Spirit and do not have the fruit, everything goes to waste.

The fruit that they are saying is Love and the indication of Love and the basis of it is to love like Jesus. Like the kindness and the most understanding heart there is in the face of the eart, that’s the kind of love you will need to have within you.

When someone pisses you off, instead of being mean to that person or giving that person the taste of their own medicine, choose to love like Jesus.

When your partner is being extra difficult, choose to love like Jesus.

When we are insulted, scrutinized in the most embarrassing way, instead of dwelling on anger and shame, choose to love like Jesus.

How to do that? See the best in these people, see the good in a bad situation. Choose to see the light. Do not give in to pride, anger, sorrow, pain. Look for the love inside your heart .

Someone in the office is being extra mean to me. Making me feel unworthy, making me feel that somehow, sometimes I am not welcome. This person makes me feel like she is a friend but her meanness would radiate and being an emphatic and an INFJ, I know very well someone’s intentions and feelings towards me. I just don’t do well with confrontations but I know well what they think of me. Now, that person tests me every day—today included. But since learning about how to love like Jesus, I am putting it to practice. I will not give in to the mean acts of this person. I will not feel negatively or feel hurt. All I will do is be the best that I am, and try seeing that person on a different light. You know it’s hard to love like Jesus right? It’s hard when people are extremely brutal, it’s hard when you get bullied, it’s hard when you are so determined to stand up for yourself just this once but come to think of it, it will be easier to just let it go and love instead of harbouring pain, anger and hurt. Mas mahirap magbitbit ng mga bagaheng nakakasakit kaysa sa bitawan ito ng tuluyan.

Practice loving like Jesus and maybe it’s for the better. Maybe you’ll feel better.

Untitled.

Sinusulat ko to sa journal ko. Sobrang personal nito para sa akin kaya hindi ko iniisip i-share sa iba. Kadalasan ng ga spiritual encounters ko, mga about faith, hindi ko siya nakukwento sa blog hindi dahil nahihiya ako or parang ang uncool ng dating. Pero dahil napakapersonal nito para sakin. Parang isa siyang bagay na sobrang special na iniingatan ko. Kaya lang today, feeling ko kailangan koi share sainyo kasi siguro para naman kung may pinagdadaanan kayo, baka makatulong. O kaya naman para sa mga tumutulong na ipagdasal ako, eto yung fruit ng pagdadasal niyo din para sa akin.


Nagchuchurch kami ni Airah sa The Feast Bay Area (AM Session) magmula February. Intense ang feeling ko tuwing worship, lagi akong naiiyak. Namiss ko ito at naisip ko kailan ba ako huling nagworship sa panginoon? Simula ng mawala ang Uber, nahirapan kami ni Airah kasi mula pa kami sa Cainta (borderline, Pasig) tapos sa Pasay pa kami nagchuchurch kaya medyo struggle kami pumunta at umuwi galing doon. Last week, dahil sa mahihirapan kami at may schedule din sa afternoon na pupuntahan naming dalawa, nagdecide kami na sa The Feast Ortigas muna. Okay naman, maayos din naman don. As in okay talaga yung community. Wala namang pinipiling lugar yung pagbibigay praise sa Diyos diba? Kaya masaya pa rin kami. After non, pinagdadasal ko n asana next week sa Bay Area ulit kami makapagchurch. Di ko alam kung dahil dun ba ako nasanay pero iba din kasi yung pakiramdam, iba yung aura haha. Tapos parang yung mga tala, nagaalign para samin kasi saktong may driver kami na makakasama so walang problema sa transpo! So eto na.

Eto na yung talagang ikukwento ko.

The usual. Mass, worship and talk. Ayan ang pagkakasunod sunod. Sa misa palang, iba na yung nararamdaman ko. Fast forward sa worship at sa Talk about the Fruit of the Holy Spirit. Hanggang sa nung nagsasalita na yung worship leader habang may nagwoworship na, nabanggit niya ang mga katagang ito na tumatak talaga sakin at nagpaiyak sakin hahahah “if nawalan ka na ng gana. Magkakaron ka ulit ng gana, like a new beginning from the Holy Spirit. If the fruit of what you’re doing, if you’re working hard to help people—then you must love these people. If you love like that, you are loving like Jesus” parang biglang binigyan ako ng pagasa na I am doing this because I love like Jesus, na para bang navalidate ni God yung pagkatao ko at pahapyaw na sinabi sakin na worthy ako sa pagmamahal at blessings niya. Na parang sinasabi sakin ng Panginoon na a new day will come, a new morning will wake me up from a long slumber of pain and heartache na sinasabi sakin na if I continue to love like Jesus, I will not only be blessed but I will also bless the world.

*sorry sobrang gulo kasi di ko nanaman iniisip yung tinatype ko*

Di ko rin alam kasi kung PMS lang ba to kaya sobrang emotional ko o kaya naman talagang pinaparamdam ng Diyos sakin yung pagmamahal Niya sakin bilang anak Niya.

Ang daming nangyayari sa buhay ko, hinintay ko ng matagal na maimbitahan sa isang interview, hindi pa ito ang success story kasi hindi pa naman ako natatanggap don pero this is enough for me na mabigyan ng ganitong opportunity at tingin ko, God made the way for me. Now all I know is if this is meant to be, it will happen. If this is what’s God’s will is, then this will be for me. Naiiyak ako tuwing sinasabihan ako ni mama at ni Kyx na “ang bilis naman sinagot ang prayers natin” o kaya naman “Woah! Diyos na ang gumagawa ng paraan” alam ko naman na hindi pa ito yun at there is no telling kung makakapasa ako dito, pero the mere fact na pinaramdam sa akin na prayers are listened to and even answered for me and for the people I love, I feel like everything can go wrong but I shall stand firm and strong kasi nagkaroon na ako ng ganitong belief sa panginoon.

I am sounding way tooooo preach-y kaya ayoko din ikwento kasi nagmumukang nagiimpose ako ng belief? Or praning lang ako?

Anyway, ano ba yung gusto kong sabihin? Tingin ko, gusto ko lang sabihin talaga na win or lose man, parang hindi na ako matitinag kasi pinafeel niya sakin yung worth ko eh.

Ang gulo gulo na pero sabog din kasi talaga utak ko ngayon haha gusto ko lang ishare sainyo kahit hindi concise at klaro ang thoughts ko haha. May mapupulot pa rin kayo dito kahit magulo yung pagsusulat ko bwahaha.

Letting God

I tell myself the phrase “Let Go and Let God” over and over again in different circumstances almost every day. Every time I tell myself that, I find it hard to really let go and give it all to God. I mean I don’t even understand how it becomes hard. Maybe because we always want to be in control of our lives and when things don’t go as planned, we find it hard to cope?

You see, I am about to embark on a road I have not taken before. The unknown is always scary but how can we be scared already when we don’t know what is it that will come for us, what’s going to get us? Is there a big monster that will bite us in the ass? We don’t know for sure what’s on the path untaken, what’s waiting for us on the other end so I’d like to remind myself these things that maybe, you can remind yourself too and we can move forward from everything?

  1. Fear of the unknown is senseless. We don’t even know what’s going to get us so why are we scared to take a step forward?
  2. Have we forgotten about our intelligence, capabilities and abilities to come through? We’d definitely make it out alive because we should know that WE CAN DO IT. Keep the faith. Trust yourself.
  3. If then that we are faced with failure, it just means another opportunity, another learning curve, a sense of growth. Something we can use to keep ourselves stronger.

If we tried our best and still failed, maybe God has different and better plans for us. So if we think with the mindset that this is an opportunity for growth and if this isn’t what’s for us, then we won’t find it so hard to let go and let God.

Note To Self #1

Kung mabilis silang kalimutan ka at burahin ka sa buhay nila, MAG MOVE ON KA NA KASI PUNYETA PALA EH. KAYA PALA NAMAN NILA GAWIN YON TAPOS IKAW MUKA KA LANG TANGA NA NAIIYAK NALULUNGKOT NANANAGINIP TUNGKOL SA KANILA PERO IKAW DI KA NA NILA NAIISIP DIBA? SO ANO PA BANG SAYSAY NG FEELINGS MO??? TANGINA. Kung kaya ka nila ilaglag ng walang ano ano, HINDI SILA KAWALAN. HINDI SILA IMPORTANTE. WALA SILANG KWENTA SA BUHAY MO NGAYON KAYA TIGILAN MO NA ANG MALUNGKOT DAHIL WALAAAAAAANG KWENTAAAAAA ANG KINALULUNGKUTAN MO. NYEMAS!

Working on Choosing My Battles

One of the many things I’ve learned to do (still on the process of mastering it) is choosing my battles wisely. It’s far from easy and I guess it will forever be hard especially for someone like me—an overly emotional INFJ who feels so much more than I should.

I am taking one baby step after another so I still kind of really feel bad when people are rude and especially mean to me but instead of showing them they affect me and let them know that I am thinking every second, stressing myself and over analyzing every single detail, I keep it to myself because I wouldn’t give these people the satisfaction of knowing that I cared enough to feel bad.

So I guess I still am far from really being able to choose my battles wisely because I still feel bad right? But I’m happy I can already control how I act towards unsettling situations!

May 19 – 20

I have yet to put the pictures on the stuff I have drafted (marami sila) but I have yet to post it because I want to add the pictures already but I didn’t have the time to do that yesterday! -_-

So today, let me update you with my weekend as if it was interesting enough hahaha.

Saturday – we had no plans so I was just really looking forward to taking a nap once I get home but since Kyx had a meeting with his officemates at Glorietta and he’s thinking that since he’s already out of the house, why not grab some dinner with his friends and me. So After his meeting and late lunch, he picked me up at 4pm. We’re waiting for King and Jerome so we had ice cream first and I bought a book at fullybooked (I swore I wouldn’t buy anything but I can’t be trusted inside a bookstore so..)

After that, we met up with King and Jerome at Mendokoro. I think we learned about Mendokoro 2 years ago when we were searching for the best ramen in the Philippines (Sorry Mendokoro but Ippudo is still our number one) and we loved their Super Chashu. Also a side note, ever since Ellen Adarna’s issue, the waiting time went on for more than 4 hours! (the longest we had to wait back then was a maximum of an hour hay)

Anywaaaaayyyyyy, we got there at 7pm and since the wait is taking forever, we walked to the nearest 7-11 and stayed there for about an hour. When we got back, we waited for another hour. Haaaay haahha. The ramen is good nonetheless. Kyx and I just shared a bowl and ordered 3 pieces of Gyoza and right after dinner, we all went home!

Sunday – woke up early because Airah and I would go to church. Digs dropped us off and after church, we met up with Kyx and Rubs. We ate late lunch at Ippudo (I love you, Ippudo) and met up with Aki and Vannessa for Deadpool 2. We enjoyed the movie and had coffee after. I love hanging out with these people even for just a few hours because they’re like the realest friends ever!

Nothing really fancy about my weekend. It’s just worth sharing because I really had a nice time!


Currently Watching: Haikyuu!! and The Kissing Booth

Currently Reading: Stay Sweet, Crazy Rich China Girl Friend and Genuine Fraud