26th!!!

Watch out for my 26th birthday (post)! 

I can’t wait to share with you all what transpired. I’m truly happy and I’ve never felt this way towards my birthday before so it’s special to me 💖

I’ll write all about it later! Whoohoo! 😚

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Oh and By The Way…


This is me being all happy today!

I’m a few days away from turning another year older and ahhhh I just wanna stop growing old but I can’t help but feel nice that it’s almost my birthday!

In a long time, I have dreaded my birthday. I hated summer because I know that it’s not gonna be long before I turn another year older. Like on my old blog entries and about a year ago, I was dreading the days before my birthday because I never wanted to celebrate it. Not because I didn’t wanna grow older but I felt like I am being forced to be responsible, to be someone I am not. I grow anxious because I didn’t think I was ready, I didn’t believe in myself, I didn’t like myself. I’d remember picturing myself as a successful grown-up but the moment I enter that phase, I get too caught up with myself and the strings I have attached to myself, restricting everything I have control over.

But now, a lot has changed!

I am very far from saying “Oh yes, at last! I have figured my life out, I have sorted myself and I am exactly where I planned to be. I love it” no. I am not there. At least not yet. However, I feel like I am more open to possibilities, changes and opportunities. I welcome change more than ever and I have learned a lot about myself over the course of 25 years. Now, as I am almost 26, I look back and cringe at how stupid I was before. How naïve, how angry, how different! I see a great difference from where I was at before, to where I was now—emotionally, mentally and spiritually.

Can’t say I am stable but I’m probably more improved than before! The fact that I understand myself more now in most days than I don’t is pretty impressive huh? I know I have a long way to go, I have more to learn and a bunch of stuff to let go but I am happier and bolder now!

I like myself more therefore, I get to like other people more than I did before. I am in control of my decisions and I trust my instinct more! I also understand the choices I make and I thank myself for being who I am today. I am stronger and more lively!

I guess this is God’s doing, my family’s support and my friends. Aside from that, I guess Yoga helped me a lot too! Whoo!

What’s Up?

I have been doing Yoga for about a week or two now and I can say I find it very therapeutic for me. I mean it works well as a workout or whatnot but it also eases my stress levels ? I’m not sure if I am just on a happy note the past few days but I am almost stress free for a good week now and I feel like it’s about Yoga. Last weekend, I also started watching a Korean series called “Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo” and I am enjoying it so much! It takes so much of my time but I’m loving it. I’m limiting a half episode of it on weekdays cause I watch Death Note as well (I’m re-watching the anime version before the live action enters). I figured I am not good at drafting my posts because it always ends up not being published. 😦 Last night, I did a 50 minute Yoga and finished a bag of potato chips after. That’s so lame right? I wish I could be more disciplined!!! Gahhh. Also, my birthday is coming up in a few days and maybe this is a first time in a long time that I looked forward to my birthday. Stoked, even! Whoo!