Sad :(

I am always always always well aware of my flaws, my strengths and weaknesses. I know where to work things out, I know when to accept defeat, I know when to fight, I know when to stop. I am always sure of what I wanted but now, as I am thinking the next thing I will be typing, please know that I am cringing. I cringe that I feel undeserving of things, blessings etc. I feel like I am not worthy. I feel like I am not important and that I do not matter. I am suddenly on a dark path thinking about nothing but my insecurities and what made me feel like this. It’s like I am all undeserving of what I have been getting all my life. I feel like I am not worthy. No one of importance actually made me feel like this, I just make myself feel so unworthy because I don’t know why. Also, I keep finding myself as the never number 1 choice. I always think of myself as the option if Plan A didn’t work out. Again, no one ever made me feel that way. I do not know where this is all coming from and it’s making me really sad. I know my strengths, I know my weaknesses, I know myself but why am I feeling this way today. It hurts to think that I’m in this black hole of never ending feelings. I’m so lost.

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Thea

Thea, 26, INFJ (Turbulent) Always interested in other people's opinion on matters, ideas and random thoughts. I mostly keep to myself but I found that writing in this blog is easier than bottling my feelings up. Reading, writing, tea, coffee and wine are my favorite things. You can catch me mostly on twitter and instagram: @xoxthea make sure to say hello! :")

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